I think that most people would call it a bit of crisis-situation, if they knew my present status. Well, it should be called a self-made crisis. I am taking up lot of responsibilities which I necessarily don't need to. But trust me, it IS fun to get crushed! ;)
Sometime in the past, I had made it my policy - "Compromise Not", which has made things a little tighter. I am just not ready to leave anything, anything which I want to do/achieve; and ((un)fortunately) I want to do/learn so many things - some totally unrelated to my publicly-declared-fields-of-interest.
A bit of sociology, more than a bit of philosophy, juggling, etc. are some of the new items. The first two require a lot of reading - which I am doing a little; and the last one needs loads of practicing - which I am not doing! ;)
The other day, I was listing out the small little things I want to do, to a friend. After telling her, I was just happy that when I get around these things, I'd have grown up a LOT. So, for the same reason, I call it the critical time of my life, during which I am learning lot of stuff.
The fun part is that, all these things, which are taking up a lot of my precious time, could be dropped anytime. No pressure on me - no pressure at all. But remember : "No Compromise". Do stuff; learn new things; achieve things; make it BIG. What is wrong in dreaming, if I am more than willing to put the effort to materialise my dreams!? And, trust me again, IT IS FUN. At the end of day, you have some kind of thrill! :)
Along with my list of things, I have, at present, my major philosophical confusion. Especially in the past 4-6 months, my reading has gone really wide (wild) and mostly about the stuff that matters. The clash of ideal world and real world and practical world and even some virtual worlds ;) . Well, now some of my readers might be thinking that these are the stuff which don't matter. Perhaps....! ;)
So, now I come back from useless abstract things to the mundane world! ;)
After the accident, till date, I was not able to give due importance and attention to any of my blogs - neither English, Malayalam nor German was updated regularly. Now I am back - officially.
Signing off, Sands.
PS: I used to think that I think out-of-the-box. But I realize that the first box in which the majority of people stay and of which I am outside is inside another box. Now I have to get out of that box too. But if I am not inside any box, then it will be too bad.
PPS: There are people out there - with crazy ideas. I am reading two books:
- "Cultural Software - A Theory of Ideology"
- "How the mind works"
The kind of things people know! I have finished just one chapter each. Would take ages before I finish them, if at all I do finish them. But I would have witnessed so many dramatic debates inside my head before putting them down. Looking forward to getting someone to argue with. :)