I was not at all like me. Life teaches you new things, every relationship teaches you new things. But, this was totally new - I saw a new face of mine.
After seeing the Emptiness post, the Red Girl asked me - "So you missed me?". Both the times this topic came, I replied, "Not really.. may be a little" - which was more or less true. Because, even though I wasn't enjoying the silence/emptiness while she was away, I knew she'd be back in a couple of days. More over, I am not the kind of person who'd miss people.
But now it is not even 2 hours since she left. I already miss her. It is for the first time in my life, I am showing such a weakness. Really!!
I have never missed even a single person in my life. Never means Never... NOBODY this way.
I myself hadn't realized that this very girl was so valuable! Isn't it surprising? Boy! She is damn sure special.
I know, she will be back in a couple of days again ... but this time is different!
Writing this down here is not going to help me but I cannot help recording such an intense feeling which I am having for the first time.
It was not like me at all, all the afternoon - in the negative side of moods. To add insult to injury, my voice trembled when she was just leaving! :( [too bad... shame on me :( ]
Well, I should change the topic. Or just go ahead and have some food!
Signing off, Sands.